buddha and roses: dream of flying

this is what i see from my bed

darkness

darkness
falls
softly
like snowflakes
on my heart.

i need
your eyes
to see
my light.

i spread
my wings
to make you fly.

but the sky
comes
down.

Peter Gabriel HD - "Mercy Street" - New Blood Orchestra - Live in London

rainy, cold. extremely depressed, but i know why. i cannot let go.

to die and to live

to die is painful until you are dead. i am pre-occupied with living meanwhile.

tat tvam asi

tat tvam asi. my father had long talks with me about this. "this is you"..."you are this".  in my way, this means: "you are me", for me it is a challenge to see in another being that we are connected, a challenge to take on my dark sides and transform and accept hate and love into a spiritual experience of oneness. a difficult journey but rich. it is the foundation of my own ethical background. i do not claim any other.

Itzhak Perlman - Beethoven Violin Romance No. 2 , Op. 50

dream of the petrels

dream of the petrels
though kisses
can be like the trace of a snake