pasta alla Asia for people in a hurry

yesterday i did this:

1)spaghetti, boil in really well salted water, not al dente, but fairly soft
   drain water off, mix with a good lump of butter in still warm pot.
   stir with black pepper powder.

2) prepare before: large nice ceramic bowl, use a mix of soysauce, brown sugar, black pepper powder,            mixed italian herbs, lemon  juice, a splash of Worcester, a tiny bit of Madeira,
   add excellent green olive oil and a good lot of finely chopped chives.
    (if you don't have these use spring onions)

3) fry finely cut onions golden brown, adding a bit of brown sugar, pepper, oregano.
    (for non vegetarians: you can add bacon sliced in small bits or minced meat.)

4) Stir and mix all parts together. Eat.

unfinished,stage 2; "the destruction of dreams"

i don't know what to say, but i said it. about that. now. something nags and gnaws at the back of my mind.
and i don't know what to do about it. nothing. paint. i think if you pay attention to bitching too much, it will take you in and over. i know the place. been there. i opt for the phoenix method. leave it be. if you must: burn, all, rise out of ashes.