Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds , Spell

Through the woods and frosted moors
Past the snow caked hedgerows I
Bed down upon the drifting snow
Sleep beneath the melting sky
I whisper all your names
I know not where you are
But somewhere, somewhere, somewhere here
Upon this wild abandoned star

And I'm full of love
And I'm full of wonder
And I'm full of love
And I'm falling under your spell

I have no abiding memory
No awakening, no flaming dart
No word of consolation
No arrow through my heart
Only a feeble notion
A glimmer from afar
That I cling to with my fingers
As we go spinning wildly through the stars

And I'm full of love
And I'm full of wonder
And I'm full of love
And I'm falling under your spell

The wind lifts me to my senses
I rise up with the dew
The snow turns to streams of light
The purple heather grows anew
I call you by your name
I know not where you are
But somehow, somewhere, sometime soon
Upon this wild abandoned star

And I'm full of love
And I'm full of wonder
And I'm full of love
And I'm falling under your spell

Willie Nelson , Bring It On (audio)

They say there is no game without pain
Well I must gaining a lot
But I'll give it all that I've got, to bring it on
Well it seems that I've been here before
So if this means that there is more, bring it on

It's written in the good book
That we'll never be asked
To take anymore than we can
Sounds like a good plan, so bring it on

If I can't see it or feel it, I don't worry said someone
And I'll have to say I agree, bring it on
Well I know you're out there 'cause I hear you breathing
But it still don't mean nothing to me, so bring it on

It's written in the good book
That we'll never be asked
To take anymore than we can
Sounds like a good plan, to bring it on

Trump : the trumpet of darkness

this is not a primitive powerful man winning the election, it is primitive powerless
people having elected him their president.
the only matter speaking for him is that he is not a re-baptized ex-alcoholic
such as Mr. Bush has been, not somebody who will think God tells him what to do and it is right.
No, far worse, he is a man who will fill many of  the stupid expectations of his followers  just because he is who he is. he even doesn't mind if he will be right or wrong: he will do as he wants.
there is no reason to hope for anything good rising out of his politics.
so, the best he is: public enemy nr. one. a clear cut enemy for most of this world.
and don't we all need such enemies? we can  learn more from them than from friends. there is only one hope: for our american friends to find courage, reason and resistance enough until the next election. or better, Mr.Trump to have a nice heart attack before, no need for him to suffer, just make it quick. it is not that i really like Mrs. Clinton, but one could have hoped for reasonable politics
and a readiness to compromise.

of course, of course, i know: i don't live there, how can i know.
but eyes and ears reach far in our time, and non-involvement makes the brain work
more independently, much more smoothly. and this i know for sure.
and that bad will call bad.

just an opinion from...


quoting:
"love trumps hate"

Muddy Paws , Simon's Cat

Moby & The Void Pacific Choir , I Wait For You

I'm going to leave me right there now
I'm going to leave me right there
I'm going to look somewhere else now
I'll never look anywhere

I wait for you
I break for you
On the sky
On the sea wall

New horses, pacing courses
Pace me there, and
I will find you again my love
I will always begin my love

I wait for you
I break for you
I wait for you
I break for you
All the time
All the time

Look down this greasy pipe
Stay down like falling nights
Stay down where the trees align
Stay down for a gentle light


I want something to pretend
I need trouble that will end
I need some more light to bend
I need some love now and then

Feel the goodness in our mind
I feel the time we were the boss of time
I feel the attention of a bursting world
Cut the fever with a golden wing

We were gone, where we had been
Drafted there and at the end
Could you see my self gold locked again
I couldn't live without you

Stay like a bridge and stay for me
For a time you lived you were avoiding me
You were the finest days when you were finding strays
You were bleeding one upon the silver trays

I wait for you 

Nick Cave & The Bad Seeds , Are You The One That I've Been Waiting For?

ok..on ice age...well. just..i also want to rest my head...

I've felt you coming girl, as you drew near
I knew you'd find me, cause I longed you here
Are you my destiny? is this how you'll appear?
Wrapped in a coat with tears in your eyes?
Well take that coat babe, and throw it on the floor
Are you the one that I've been waiting for?

As you've been moving surely toward me
My soul has comforted and assured me
That in time my heart it will reward me
And that all will be revealed
So I've sat and I've watched an ice-age thaw
Are you the one that I've been waiting for?

Out of sorrow entire worlds have been built
Out of longing great wonders have been willed
They're only little tears, darling, let them spill
And lay your head upon my shoulder
Outside my window the world has gone to war
Are you the one that I've been waiting for?

O we will know, won't we?
The stars will explode in the sky
O but they don't, do they?
Stars have their moment and then they die

The Doors , I will Never Be Untrue

no, i will never be untrue, but...can be mean ...and cause a scene ...

Albert Camus, happiness, quote

"The solidarity of bodies, unity at the center of the mortal and suffering flesh. This is what we are and nothing else. We are this plus human genius in all its forms, from the child to Einstein. 

No, … it is not humiliating to be unhappy. Physical suffering is sometimes humiliating, but the suffering of being cannot be, it is life. … What you must do now is nothing more than live like everybody else. You deserve, by what you are, a happiness, a fullness that few people know. Yet today this fullness is not dead, it is a part of life and, to its credit, it reigns over you whether you want it to or not. But in the coming days you must live alone, with this hole, this painful memory. This lifelessness that we all carry inside of us — by us, I mean to say those who are not taken to the height of happiness, and who painfully remember another kind of happiness that goes beyond the memory. 

Sometimes, for violent minds, the time that we tear off for work, that is torn away from time, is the best. An unfortunate passion."

Well, this is why we usually have a cup of coffee instead of shooting us in the head, else one cannot talk about usually anymore.

And me, not so unwell and not so happy but with all this memory of other happiness from life and karma, i'm going to lit a fire, took timber inside, so, and have a little vodka with lemon and aperol. unhappiness is part of happiness, and that's all. 

https://www.brainpickings.org/2013/11/07/albert-camus-notebooks-happiness/

Al Gromer Khan,The Wayfarer ,Space Hotel

Al Gromer Khan , Dance the Hadra ,Space Hotel

Nick Cave and The Bad Seeds , There Is a Kingdom

Just like a bird that sings up the sun
In a dawn so very dark
Such is my faith for you
Such is my faith
And all the world's darkness can't swallow up
A single spark
Such is my love for you
Such is my love

There is a kingdom
There is a king
And he lives without
And he lives within

The starry heavens above me
The moral law within
So the world appears
So the world appears
This day so sweet
It will never come again
So the world appears
Through this mist of tears

There is a kingdom
There is a king
And he lives without
And he lives within

is it possible, diary note

is it possible that i am quietly depressed

although i am neither ill nor suffering more than anybody else?

is depression something bad or is it not

often only a stage on the journey?

after all there are always places where the river is slowed down, also the ego has to learn to die or at least to go subterranean and re-emerge.

there is no treatment nor drug to cure,

and doctors should be refused, they are in the way as we are to us.

the healer is in us and must be found.

my sleep is bad tonight...

Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Idiot, quotes

'Don’t let us forget that the causes of human actions are usually immeasurably more complex and varied than our subsequent explanations of them.'

'it's life that matters, nothing but life — the process of discovering, the everlasting and perpetual process, not the discovery itself, at all.'

'Do you know, to my thinking it's a good thing sometimes to be absurd; it's better in fact, it makes it easier to forgive one another, it's easier to be humble. One can't understand everything at once, we can't begin with perfection all at once! In order to reach perfection one must begin by being ignorant of a great deal. And if we understand things too quickly, perhaps we shan't understand them thoroughly'

'beauty is a riddle'

on fear

i have no fear to be weak

nor to be strong.

i have no fear to be

alone nor together.

i have no fear to live nor to die,

i fear two:

me and to leave me.

maybe it is not important.

and never was.