Glen Hansard , The Closing Door

a door closing opens the other side

Ceasornicul, The Clock, Grigoras Dinicu

Grigoras Dinicu , Recital

Jeff Buckley , Lover, You Should've Come Over (from Live in Chicago)

not lover, not at all..'romantic', just likes the music

Marcus Aurelius, quote

‚For a man can lose neither the past nor the future; 
for how can one take from him that which is not his?‘

diary note

giving all i wanted all, i gave my hand
and longed for the same.
i didn‘t want one thing, not at all, i wished for all-
and now as so often before -even after the ‚end‘ - all is
distorted in incredible ugliness. i didn‘t know
how to stop it . this i did badly- hurtful- but it was
necessary to stop, for me. and obviously better so.
still sad.

sisyphos didn‘t complain

Sisyphos didn‘t complain
o he was a wise man
he heaved it up
watched it roll down

carried and heaved
this heavy  stone,
again and again,
each step just being

exactly that, another step,
Sisyphos was a wise man,
never giving up because
he did what he did

without looking for sense,
he breathed, all labour,
all inside the All,
out of the universe

he took this energy,
the flow and the weight
in balance, one breath,
no past, no future, all

forever now, forever
this hill and this stone.
one thought could have
made his fate unbearable.

he was a wise man,
Sisyphos didn‘t complain.
he didn’t think if
he could stop and go

he knew and kept silent:
nothing makes sense,
there is no meaning,
what is so, it is so.

though tomorrow
Sisyphos may think.
and then this stone
may hit my senseless head