clairvoyance is a poison

clairvoyance
an inherited gift
i didn't ask for

"gift" is the
german word
for poison

and it is not
very nice
mixing up
dream and reality,

to err around
like a shadow
between shadows

and lose yourself
until you don't know
what is true
and what is not

it is not nice
to be
one's own ghost


remark:
it is very diffiuclt
to discern
confusion
and vision

now i have a house

now i have
a house
but no heart inside

now
i have a heart
but no walls around

now
i don't know
where i am,

near a river
where i watch
autumn leaves

passing.
me.


remark:
no answer is answering.
looking for confusion
we will find it.

Chopin - Cello Sonata in G minor, Op. 65 (Maria João Pires & Pavel Gomzi...

"things" are as they are but i  know neither what they are nor what they mean to my life.

i even don't know who i am and what i "mean".

you can quote Dr.F's daily comment:

so what?

John Lennon - Gimme Some Truth (Lyrics)

i'm not even sick of this anymore. it is enough for me to be true to me and  to be myself.