diary note

nobody can be sadder than sad.
my soul has found no space with
another, all is distortion, vexation.
solitude is better, silence is better.
if it needs a fight, well, i can fight
and draw a line. not to conquer but to
be left alone.

Yo-Yo Ma , Bach, Cello Suite No. 1 in G Major, Prélude (Official Video)

Jeff Buckley , Forget Her (Official Music Video)

but to be a fool does not mean to be an idiot...just to be carried away,

to ride the wave though one knows about falling..

on I, diary note

i cannot be bad nor good.
I does not exist.
good or bad, it is just always one I,
not me my self nor important in any way.
I am happy I do not exist, this is not quite so:
Me my self is happy I does not exist.
Me can follow other paths.
and the I with which i walk around today
feels already a little less weight to carry.