diary, July 15th

your doctor's quote for today: in spite of all the lies i have to hear, truly amidst confusion, suffering and chaos, i have survived as a human and as a spiritual being. i still am near, not only with empathy but with compassion. i am alive. i have failed my children and women more often when they needed me. i have mistreated myself. this is where my borders are these last few years. so please, dear patients, don't try to hurl me out of me into your universe. i will not follow. i will only walk next to you, and i will not carry you.