i don't know what love means

i don't know what love means.
it is a word.
misused.

i know what i want.
to be with you.
to be close with you.

i know
what i do not want to be.
i don't want to be a prison,
not for me,
not for you.

i don't want
to be a trapdoor.
I don't want you
to be a black hole.

i don't want
to wear a mask
i don't want
you wearing a mask.

i know
what i don't need.
i know what i need.
i can take both
but not one.

all
i want
is to be
with you
as much
as this is possible.
at all.

that's all.
so what.

i will
be kind.
because i am.