and more is not to say

John 1 

1 In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.

"in principio erat Verbum et Verbum erat apud Deum et Deus erat Verbum"

The word in the translated text was logos which does not mean "word".

We do not know about the beginning and certainly not about a word creating our universe and us. Modestly we may see all this as an emanation of what we may call God or not. It, all, God,  is beyond the grasp of thoughts and thankfully beyond the significance of words.

We cannot go beyond experience and sensation of presence  in our understanding.

As cutting as words may be as a tool of communication they lack the essence of truth, and analyzing words makes us stumble between shadows and walk in circles without awareness of the flow of life.

I am afraid of words, more and more, afraid of my own words.

From early childhood words define our perception of this life, this world, each other. 

We learn to call a rose a rose and learn to be stupidly satisfied by recognizing a rose as a rose. We do not SEE it anymore as before when we still didn't know to say rose.

I have to learn a new language without words.

and more is not to say