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Wednesday, March 25, 2015

thoughts, Mojito and nada-ness in Monterosso



is it weird to have a Mojito at 4 pm?
before i had pizza and water, in Manarola.
anyway, it made me feel warmer, so it must
be ok.

though i am not happy, and i am not so often anyway, maybe, maybe not,
i flow in the moment.
so do my thoughts.
i feel terribly lonely, never did feel
as isolated before. but it must be.
i lost whom i love and was in love with.
also i lost a very valuable friend.
unfortunately she is totally unable to have
any relationship at this time of her life.
she is too busy with herself.
the question is certainly not to complain and not only to mourn 
but to think about why i had to go through this.
I really think we probably quite often choose
another human with qualities and patterns of
behaviour which we know but have not learnt yet
how to deal with. even if it is only to learn to say
no.
which is not very much.



ps: of course, as everybody, i am also busy with myself. but..sorry



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