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Wednesday, February 17, 2016

for my love i chased away

My love you stayed
underwater
in your soul
deep down

My love you lived
in dreams of fear,
hiding under
the sailing boats

You came with open heart
and a thirsty mind
but with indecision
blackening my time

My love you only
wanted to share
the dance in the light
and then withdraw

When the nightingale called
you left for your cage
where i could not
reach for you

And i had to walk
in mine which is
a place of cruel memory
and longing to be free


Near to death
i could not bear
your absence at night
and the coldness

Which you used
to fight my need
and your own,
being so frightened

And i refused the dance
and i cried
like a child in pain,
then i cut the music

And stood up
to hurt you.
Go away
I said

The first word
of growing up
is no
but not always right

I love you
for your fear
for your weakness
and helplessness

I love you
for your courage,
kindness, for
your fighting spirit

And this is
how i need to be loved
when i cry out
under the teeth of  the harrow.

Wake up, wake up,
say yes or say no
and when you say yes
then come out from down under

and we can go and dance
and walk on the  water
without fear to drown
or to hurt each other.

This is what i pray
and what i prayed for,
but praying is idle
when the sails are set

My love, sleep,sleep
and dream your flower
to unfold out of this
cocoon of suffering.

Your soul carries beauty,
let it come out,
i would touch it
with care and tenderness

But if not for me,
then for you,
it is your strength
and your beauty in life
and in dying.


Though i sent now
my heart into a submarine,
it can rise, rise
and meet yours
when the time will come.


















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