Gurdjieff: Teacher of Radical Transformation (re-re-vised post )

..."to feel beauty, to feel truth, that is self-remembering.

self-remembering is the awareness of the presence of God."

for sure i like this very much...





well. i have to digest it more. i looked a lot into Gurdjieff.

i saw he was quite an authoritarian man.

and i still dislike the use of higher and lower. my main critic on

many esoteric teachings as this language stems from a language of master and slave.

interiorized it does the same as Christianity, it makes us subject to domination by whatsoever.

and more often than not by whomsoever.

this can only be wrong in my personal view.


is it not more to find a way "nearer" to the heart and  perception freed from patterns

going out of the noise of greed, convention, immediate need and confusion,

to fill our and others life with  true, kind and mindful presence?

not to be higher or better than others, not to  disregard ourselves and others

but to find what we see as good and to radiate light from inside through us and

other beings?

this has nothing to do with general definitions and classification at all.

it is not a matter of language but rather of getting rid of it in many ways.

of course we will try to develop certain qualities, one can say that, finding them

more valuable than others- this doesn't allow for describing a hierarchical general system

in which body, soul, emotion, suffering, helplessness are lower and spirit is higher:

this kind of description will again alienate us from ourselves

and create neglection of the gift of life.

i try to say:

when we can see that there is no self although we are bound to experience self

it is not the right way to develop self into "higher" but to find a way

through all estrangement, reaction and daily life "nearer" to the heart and truth of being a human.


when we would use high and low as for the frequencies of sound and notes it will be ok for me.

here we do not see the higher note as "better" than the lower note, they all go together

and can be present together in rhythms, proportions and patterns we call music

- including the pauses. music feels to me at times like the secret of true vision.



for any other being on earth such as a flower we wouldn't discern better and worse parts.

for humans walking with consciousness and with the gift and task to make buddha light

and kindness shining through awareness, self consciousness, reflections and acts

we tend to define lower and higher. we do this because we have also been given thought

which digests memory and i know what happens with digestion.

what we should mean is essence and periphery, concentration and dispersion,

rhythm and dissonance, dense and transparent- all inside the flow of love-

we are made of and belong in all parts to all parts of the universe which do and does

not exist as or in parts - same as music.

i see us rather as dots of spirit and matter which is in essence the same though we cannot see it easily,

dots or musical notes expanding and contracting as concentrated energy

of which each part which is not a part radiates through the others which are not parts -

and all rests in and comes out of the one energy and light and frequency and music

which is incomprehensible, we may call it god or buddha light or what we can

see. but we are not really dots. this is but a poor image. here we are blind when we talk or write

but we can feel and see and listen inside.



and it is not a "higher" path to free one's mind and soul to see and to do this in daily life,

to be modest, to be kind, to see our deepest relatedness and singularity

as well as the irrelevance of this singularity in the face of

death, life, truth and love- it is a good path, a true path, a way of liberation and joy

and not better in comparison to any other but for the one who walks and persists

nearer to his or her heart.

it can be an intelligent and compassionate travel through the growth of our life and dying,

it opens space through awareness, presence and mindfulness.



because  it is better for us doesn't make us better per se than other humans.

it just can be possible to reach a state or states out of which we can give and receive more easily,

nothing will be gained by seeing an aim or an idea of how to be and strife for it.

no outward flow of value will be possible as long as we are busy with our ego in this way,

and all we have to do is to set aside ego, really sit aside, again and again all the more easily as ego

exists only in our own imagination and noise and in the response and reactions from our fellow

human beings.

this is so often so difficult to do: it must be the way of the heart or none.

it is not just a technique or a discipline or an esoteric method.

enlightenment which cannot not reach out and give and be

and work through life is not true, just another hallucination.

note: to give is not an aim, 

but to transform into living nearer the heart without fear makes giving possible.



i try associative approaches. and must digest more.

my critic on definitions does not mean i cannot appreciate Gurdjieff's work.

though i feel that all context which can appear dogma has to go under the sword

first before i can go back to the essence.


ps: my associations are maybe too naive and poetic.
this happens when thinking about the unthinkable.
i forgot darkness and what we call the bad in our world.





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