Freitag, 21. November 2014

November: to open the sky

when you think,
all is relative.
when you feel,
all flows.

when you walk,
step for step
is a surpise.

when you run,
you don't see
what is near.

i want to rip
through the clouds,
open the sky,
i cannot

i sit
i doesn't change
but i change.

and instead,
i open my eyes,
i see.

Donnerstag, 20. November 2014


meander through
these dark places
in my life.

dying a little,
day for day,

spirit, clear,
bitter, sweet

still growing inside,
green under snow,

hour for hour,
i kiss the night

a river,
flowing now,

i am calling.

i am not a white coat doctor

no. i am not a white coat doctor. i never was. i never wanted to be.
i am always who i am.
a human, a man, as honest as i  can be, listening, in opposition, with compassion,
i take the piss out of you or i  take you in my arms, i am there. nobody has to like me.
it will be easy for me to stop being a doctor because i will remain just the same man.
i never took on another face but my true one. i don't shut up though i may repent what i said. then i will say:sorry. what i feel now to be true may not be true tomorrow: and i know it. and if you are intelligent: you know it. all is change, everything flows. i will die, now i live. science knows this today and that tomorrow. i don't trust in it anymore: this is wisdom of experience.
i don't need to advertise. i am too busy. i don't want to be that much busy, obviously.
you can stay away from my office. you can stay away from me. you cannot stay away from truth forever.
ja, i am horrible but kind. face me and i will see you.
make me listen, and i will ask. ask me, and i will answer.
but i don't know.i know what i don't know.this is a lot to know. i am an authority without trying or needing to be. i am a shaman, and i want to be. but i may not be good and i may not be good being a shaman.
i am as crazy as i am, as i was and i will remain this way: freeing myself of yesterday's opinions day for day.
good night.

Chet Baker - I Talk To The Trees

Mittwoch, 19. November 2014

Balanescu Quartet - Empty Space Dance

o i am falling in love with this

Balanescu Quartet - Lullaby dream


Dhafer Youssef - Tarannoum

....O you with bloodshot eyes and bloody hands, Night is short-lived, The detention room lasts not for ever, Nor yet the links of chains....

Yusuf Bilge & Sufi Music Ensemble - Whirling

Maybe the dancing leaves

maybe the dancing leaves
want to talk,
i listen, 
a rustle , the wind
is strong, but i hear

maybe they are happy,
free whirling for 
a little time,
telling me goodbye

i turn around,
there is the night,
filled with mist and
a sweet scent of decay

a dog barks
and i walk
never too far,
never too near

the dancing leaves,
maybe the called me
to follow.

Montag, 17. November 2014

Dhafer Youssef - Langue muette it very much

Alice in Wonderland....

"Then you should say what you mean," the March Hare went on.
"I do, " Alice hastily replied; "at least I mean what I say, that's the same thing, you know."
"Not the same thing a bit!" said the Hatter. "Why, you might just as well say that "I see what I eat" is the same thing as "I eat what I see!" 
Alice in Wonderland.

Emily Wells - Waltz of the dearly beloved