Sonata for violin & piano no.4 in C Minor, Adagio , Yehudi Menuhin ,BWV 1017

going home

driving up the hill
i saw the dead passing by
greeting me, waving
their hands, saluting,
many smiled,

one stood up
in his open car
touching his cap,
a dark-haired girl
threw kisses

so many, some angry,
looking away,
some in a hurry,
most of them
staring straight ahead

as they had done
all their life long.
where did they go
at this hour,
late in the afternoon

when the blue in the sky
started to crumble,
mixing with shadow?
me driving home,
who was i to greet?

i am not Nero,
didn't send them
into the arena
to fight, to kill,
to die.

am i now the king
of the dead
or just a friend?
but it was a parade,
some stopped

until they could
see into my eyes.
i let them see
all through,
nothing to hide.

i greeted each one,
even these
i could not remember
and though i could not stand
i sat at attention

until i knew
i must be dead
and it was not them
coming to me
but me going home.

Yehudi Menuhin,J.S.Bach,Adagio, Violin Concerto in E Major , BWV 1042

Beethoven, Cello Sonata No. 3 in A major, Op. 69 (Paul Tortelier & Eric...

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Alessandro Marcello , Adagio

...all the richness of life...above the waters and the deep and from down
there and out of the earth and in the sky...all moving.....so colourful...not the vid,
the music!

Morton Feldman , Voices & Cello

riding on a dead horse, Fury in the Slaughterhouse

well..no..not dead..

fly sadness fly, Fury in the Slaughterhouse

Chelsea Wolfe, The Waves Have Come

Flatlands , Chelsea Wolfe, Mark Lanegan

Cello Suite no.1 , Prelude , Yo Yo Ma, Bach

i do not wish to think~i let it pass..

even though i know too much, see too much and even if:

"Our age has shifted all emphasis to the here and now, and thus brought about a daemonization of man and his world. The phenomenon of dictators and all the misery they have wrought springs from the fact that man has been robbed of transcendence by the shortsightedness of the super-intellectuals. Like them, he has fallen a victim to unconsciousness. But man’s task is the exact opposite: to become conscious of the contents that press upward from the unconscious. Neither should he persist in his unconsciousness, nor remain identical with the unconscious elements of his being, thus evading his destiny, which is to create more and more consciousness. As far as we can discern, the sole purpose of human existence is to kindle a light in the darkness of mere being. It may even be assumed that just as the unconscious affects us, so the increase in our consciousness affects the unconscious."

C.G.Jung,
'Memories, Dreams,Reflections'

Josef Pieper, Only the lover sings: Art and Contemplation

"Music articulates the inner dynamism of man’s existential self, which is music’s “prime matter” (so to speak), and both share a particular characteristic — both move in time."
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"Since music articulates the immediacy of man’s basic existential dynamism in an immediate way, the listener as well is addressed and challenged on that profound level where man’s self-realization takes place. In this existential depth of the listener, far below the level of expressible judgments, there echoes — in identical immediacy — the same vibration articulated in the audible music."

Josef Pieper, brainpickings.org

Tim Buckley , Love from Room 109 at the Islander (On Pacific Coast High...

..all changes all the time..

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Go and the art of non-fighting

all is about space in Go.
you try to set stones on a board
marking your space, and as it is a game, you set fake
border stones too.
When your partner comes near to gain ground,
you let him encircle himself until he cannot find space
there anymore.
You let him fight but you don't fall for it.

It is not about armies and soldiers and kings and queens
hitting each other, you don't let blood flow.

It is not ping pong, you don't hit the ball when it comes:
you do something else.

You have always space in mind and not direct and adversary encounter.

You know your mind is space.

There are long stretches during which you have no idea
what the other wants: you keep setting important strategic stones
mixing your acts with causing confusion in other places.

you let the other one imagine he has gained a kingdom,
in the end he will exhaust himself in traps
and get lost in space he cannot hold.

you don't intend to keep a certain hill or  city,
you stay relaxed, you smile, you keep the concept of space,
you are cunningly applying mathematical patterns
which take the other one in his push forward to run into
nothing by his own force.

It can be good to apply this to difficult stretches and moments
in human relationships.
Let the other one mirror himself,
and let him see the truth of his acts.
Make him think, not fight.

Give him space but don't let him take yours.

When he destroys the magic of the moment, retire
and do something else.

Don't fall for it: defend yourself without a fight,
keep detached.

You will feel and cause less pain, and less energy will be
wasted.

You don't have to keep peace all the time,
but you can stay calm.

And as there is all this space, you and him may find
another approach.

Nobody has to win.
But everybody needs
space.

And. keep and develop humor, with yourself
and the other:
nobody is perfect.

Smile.

stone

when i will

be re-born

i wish to be a stone,

half underwater

so nobody sees my smile

the wind will come

and cause ripples,

all circling around

me because

i am in the way

and i will smile

as i know

i don't cause the 

surface rings:

i am just here.