Ivan Torrent ,Release My Heart

Hymn of Love ~ Ο ύμνος της αγάπης ~ El Greco ~ Zbigniew Preisner

Hans Zimmer ,Ashes to Ashes

ashes to ashes....it will happen.

it happened, pasts met, i hope some of them can be buried

and transformed into green living.

and even then, it will happen again.

hearts meet, essence meets, minds meet, share and clash.

peace is something to let happen and to fight for.

still..in the end..ashes to ashes.

this is the course of life, and it is good.

intuition?

i fell asleep on my terrace.
somehow i learn again to admit what i need
and to let it happen, like sleep.
for some time this year following a severe acute
and dangerous illness and emotional upheaval
i used benzos, they are no good for me nor can
i imagine they are good for anyone.
for me, they make me aggressive at day
as they suppress at night and day
what is going on in me, so i cannot reach me and
deal with it nor let it happen in the light of consciousness-
then it attacks me in total suddenness and finds me helpless.
i hate this drug.

then went to see my horse, Ogro, joined him grassing, i didn't eat
grass though :-)

now on my terrace still a bit numb but remembering me.
i must trust intuition even when i have no faith.
in one i have faith, i will always follow my heart,
though for sure it is not always immediately good for me.
i cannot see another path through life.
else all looks pale and without anima,
ghosts and ideas and skeletons of dismembered humanity.

so i am here with a full moon and an aching in me
in the confusion of  my life. i feel, i am.

a day as many

feeling healthy but unwell and tired by heat,
anaesthetized in soul and immobilized inside.
and in other ways.
at least there is time now to rest in the garden,
to meditate and to fall in space.
this is all.