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Tuesday, March 7, 2017

Lluís Llach , Viatge a Ítaca

Eivør, Even If The Sun Don't Shine



Please wait for me
I will wait for you
Even if the sun don't shine
Even if the sun don't shine

Time will heal the mind
We will be alright
Even if the sun don't shine
Even if the sun don't shine
Even if the sun don't shine
Even if the sun don't shine

l see you fly
Fly through a sunny sky
Even if the sun don't shine
Even if the sun don't shine

Even if the sun don't shine
Even if the sun don't shine
Even if the sun don't shine
Even if the sun don't shine
Even if the sun don't shine
Even if the sun don't shine

Moondog ,Romance in G

Eivør Pálsdóttir, Tròdlabùndin (Trøllabundin) – 10.08.13



"Spellbound

Spellbound I am, I am
The wizard has enchanted me, enchanted me
Spellbound deep in my soul, in my soul
In my heart burns a sizzling fire, a sizzling fire
 
Spellbound I am, I am
The wizard has enchanted me, enchanted me
Spellbound in my heart's root, my heart's root
My eyes gaze to where the wizard stood"

winter fighting for return

still, i would listen

but left alone..as i prepared to be..
i think or feel and don't know what is right-
is it not better to be liked for who i am
than to be loved for who i am not?

is it not maybe at least easier to stay within a realistic set of expectations
and warm welcome than to go acting out of me trying to reach
the impossible, better to feel well than to need to permanently control emotions,
suffer frustration and hide my weakness and my longing?
Is it truly necessary to wish what is by all instinct and intuition unreachable?

the ways of karmic causes are terrible at times. they take us to the limit.
recognition of essence, the unstoppable call to love, love itself,  it has changed all my life now
for years, it has nearly killed me and it has often turned me as destructive as it has transformed me in a better man and given me deep insight, feeling, often mindfulness, joy  and flowing clearness.

it has not given me a home in this world, and maybe it was never meant to be this way.

i would listen...for the offer of a home.

Presence is the highest or purest from of love or so... i was once told- i mean to remember it is nearing a quote by Simone Weil, "Attention is the rarest and purest form of generosity"-
well, ..yes, generosity ..

I should feel more comfortable with a full presence including the honesty of emotion and the closeness of mutual trust and protection  together with the physical warmth of soul and touch in which i can find rest and peace and forgiveness  in embrace of who i am and not of somebody i should be in an undefined future.
i cannot live from drinking spirit and eating my self.
i run, i pushed.

i may have failed with my reactions, but i can only remain true  in rebellion.
when i shiver, i shiver.
i try not to be bitter and to remain human and live with kindness.
i tell this to myself tonight.
this is the only listener.

don't know where i go.
i have not been called.
but i can still walk.







Norðurljós, Eivør Pálsdóttir [Northern Lights]

Our story of rape and reconciliation ,Thordis Elva and Tom Stranger, TED Talks





this is..a really deep true story...to share

Eivør Pálsdóttir , Falling Free Live 2014



..i had me falling in hold in  mid-air....so now i may be a ghost for a time...

So Close To Being Free, Eivør Pálsdóttir

Eivør ,Undo Your Mind

for...all still for you





Undo Your Mind

In the water
Crystal clear
On the earth
And in the air
In the shadow
In the light
In the day
And in the night.
Filled with fear
Filled with faith
The one who's true
The one who betrays
Will you surrender
Before it's too late?
Do you believe
In the golden gates.
I can feel it all around
In every song, in every sound
In the mountains, in the trees
I feel it in the air I breathe.
Hear the whisper
In your ear:
I'm in love
I do not fear,
Inside your heart
Beneath your skin
It's in the dream
You're living in.
Can you rise from the dirt?
Can you love like you've never been hurt?
If you've been hurt
Can you still believe?
Can you set your spirit free?.
Undo your mind
Undo your mind.
You are the seeker
You are the child
You are the lion
Running wild
You are the master
You are the slave
You are the door in your hidden place.
I can feel it all around
In every song, in every sound
In the mountains, in the trees
I feel it in the air I breathe.
Undo your mind
Undo your mind.

Camus, The Rebel: An Essay on Man in Revolt, quotes


"What is a rebel? A man who says no, but whose refusal does not imply a renunciation. He is also a man who says yes, from the moment he makes his first gesture of rebellion.
[…]
Rebellion cannot exist without the feeling that, somewhere and somehow, one is right… The rebel … says yes and no simultaneously… In every act of rebellion, the rebel simultaneously experiences a feeling of revulsion at the infringement of his rights and a complete and spontaneous loyalty to certain aspects of himself."
....


"Despair, like the absurd, has opinions and desires about everything in general and nothing in particular. Silence expresses this attitude very well. But from the moment that the rebel finds his voice — even though he says nothing but “no” — he begins to desire and to judge… Not every value entails rebellion, but every act of rebellion tacitly invokes a value… Awareness, no matter how confused it may be, develops from every act of rebellion: the sudden, dazzling perception that there is something in man with which he can identify himself, even if only for a moment.
[…]
Why rebel if there is nothing permanent in oneself worth preserving?"
.....

"The affirmation implicit in every act of rebellion is extended to something that transcends the individual in so far as it withdraws him from his supposed solitude and provides him with a reason to act."

...

"Rebellion, though apparently negative, since it creates nothing, is profoundly positive in that it reveals the part of man which must always be defended."

.....


"The sum total of every possibility does not amount to liberty… Chaos is also a form of servitude. Freedom exists only in a world where what is possible is defined at the same time as what is not possible. Without law there is no freedom."

Jon Ronson,Strange answers to the psychopath test,TED Talks

Dalai Lama, Last Week Tonight with John Oliver (HBO)

Árstíðir ,Heyr himna smiður (Icelandic hymn) in train station

Moby ,LA1





playlist LA1-LA11

proverb, quote: endurance and non-avoidance

He who can't endure the bad will not live to see the good. ~ Yiddish Proverb 




Avoiding problems you need to face, is avoiding the life you need to live. ~ Paulo Coelho

When you are old, William Butler Yeats

"When you are old and grey and full of sleep, 
And nodding by the fire, take down this book, 
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look 
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep; 

How many loved your moments of glad grace, 
And loved your beauty with love false or true, 
But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you, 
And loved the sorrows of your changing face; 

And bending down beside the glowing bars, 
Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled 
And paced upon the mountains overhead 
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars. "

..well, we are old...