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Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Frankfurt airport





the sun shines but you cannot see it when clouds and thunder distract you, it is hidden light at night , and spirit rises through the soul, giving a wing to each one of us, but to try and fly with one wing is indeed a ridiculous spectacle at times, humans are much more clumsy than bumblebees

take it as it comes

Lines written among the Eugenian hills(1st part)

Lines Written among the Euganean Hills

BY PERCY BYSSHE SHELLEY
Many a green isle needs must be
In the deep wide sea of Misery,
Or the mariner, worn and wan,
Never thus could voyage on
Day and night, and night and day,
Drifting on his dreary way,
With the solid darkness black
Closing round his vessel's track;
Whilst above, the sunless sky,
Big with clouds, hangs heavily,
And behind, the tempest fleet
Hurries on with lightning feet,
Riving sail, and cord, and plank,
Till the ship has almost drank
Death from the o'er-brimming deep;
And sinks down, down, like that sleep
When the dreamer seems to be
Weltering through eternity;
And the dim low line before
Of a dark and distant shore
Still recedes, as ever still
Longing with divided will,
But no power to seek or shun,
He is ever drifted on
O'er the unreposing wave
To the haven of the grave.
What, if there no friends will greet;
What, if there no heart will meet
His with love's impatient beat;
Wander wheresoe'er he may,
Can he dream before that day
To find refuge from distress
In friendship's smile, in love's caress?
Then 'twill wreak him little woe
Whether such there be or no:
Senseless is the breast and cold
Which relenting love would fold;
Bloodless are the veins and chill
Which the pulse of pain did fill;
Every little living nerve
That from bitter words did swerve
Round the tortur'd lips and brow,
Are like sapless leaflets now
Frozen upon December's bough.

Hey you, Waters

Hey you, out there in the cold
Getting lonely, getting old 
Can you feel me?
Hey you, standing in the aisles
With itchy feet and fading smiles 
Can you feel me?
Hey you, dont help them to bury the light
Don't give in without a fight.

Hey you, out there on your own
Sitting naked by the phone 
Would you touch me?
Hey you, with you ear against the wall
Waiting for someone to call out 
Would you touch me?
Hey you, would you help me to carry the stone?
Open your heart, I'm coming home.

Face to face, Rabindranath Tagore

Day after day, O lord of my life, 
shall I stand before thee face to face. 
With folded hands, O lord of all worlds, 
shall I stand before thee face to face. 

Under thy great sky in solitude and silence, 
with humble heart shall I stand before thee face to face. 

In this laborious world of thine, tumultuous with toil 
and with struggle, among hurrying crowds 
shall I stand before thee face to face. 

And when my work shall be done in this world, 
O King of kings, alone and speechless 
shall I stand before thee face to face. 

Who is this, R. Tagore

I came out alone on my way to my tryst. 
But who is this that follows me in the silent dark? 

I move aside to avoid his presence but I escape him not. 

He makes the dust rise from the earth with his swagger; 
he adds his loud voice to every word that I utter. 

He is my own little self, my lord, he knows no shame; 
but I am ashamed to come to thy door in his company. 

Monday, September 29, 2014

Angewintertes Windfeld, P.Celan

ANGEWINTERTES Windfeld: hier
mußt du leben, körnig, granatapfelgleich,
aufgeharscht von
zu verschweigendem Vorfrost,
den Schriftzug der Finsterung mitten
im goldgelben Schatten - doch nie
warst du nur Vogel und Frucht -
der sternbespieenen
Überschall-Schwinge,
die du
ersangst.

Kleide die Worthöhlen aus, P.Celan

KLEIDE DIE WORTHÖHLEN AUS
mit Pantherhäuten,

erweitere sie, fellhin und fellher,
sinnhin und sinnher,

gib ihnen Vorhöfe, Kammern, Klappen
und Wildnisse, parietal,

und lausch ihrem zweiten
und jeweils zweiten und zweiten
Ton.

Die Liebe, P.Celan

DIE LIEBE, zwangsjackenschön,
hält auf das Kranichpaar zu.

Wen, da er durchs Nichts fährt,
holt das Veratmete hier
in eine der Welten herüber?

Deine Augen im Arm, P.Celan

DEINE AUGEN IM ARM,
die
auseinandergebrannten,
dich weiterwiegen, im fliegen-
den Herzschatten, dich.

Wo?

Mach den Ort aus, machs Wort aus.
Lösch. Miß.

Aschen-Helle, Aschen-Elle - ge-
schluckt.

Vermessen, entmessen, verortet, entwertet,
entwo

Aschen-
Schluckauf, deine Augen
im Arm,
immer.

today...

Bad Waldsee-Birnau-Haldenhof-Meersburg-Konstanz-Säntis(Schwägalp)-Warth-Damüls-Lech-Mittagsspitze-Furkajoch-Bezau-Lindau-Bad Waldsee

















Thursday, September 25, 2014

susuru

to sip darkness
tastes bitter.


two UFOs meeting,
two from different galaxies,
trying to communicate
in the sea of meanings:
they shrink into nothingness.

to be lost
is the essence.
to be reborn
is the root.
and the way is the way.

there is nothing more
when they cannot 
create together
another universe,
share a flow
of stardust
to spread into the night.



Saturday, September 20, 2014

Sunyata

"Wir und alle andere Materie bestehen zu mehr als 99,999999999 % des Raumvolumens aus masseleerem "Vakuum". Würde man es entfernen, blieben weniger als 20 µm Größe übrig."


"Wir leiten unsere sichtbare Welt fast ausschließlich von der Elektromagnetischen Kraft ab, vom Licht. Doch die elektromagnetische Kraft macht nur 4% der Energien unserer Wirklichkeit aus."



aus:Ulrich Warnke, Quantenphilosophie und Spiritualität


Matter is spirit....

“Matter is spirit moving slowly enough to be seen.”


Pierre Teilhard de Chardin

maybe

maybe..

(Aliza Razell)

Let there be spaces

“Let there be spaces in your togetherness, And let the winds of the heavens dance between you. Love one another but make not a bond of love: Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls. Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup. Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf. Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone, Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music. Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping. For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts. And stand together, yet not too near together: For the pillars of the temple stand apart, And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow."

Khalil Gibran, The Prophet

P.I TCHAIKOVSKY : hymn of the cherubim by The USSR Ministry Of Culture C...

Gabrielle Roth & The Mirrors - Trance

Antonio Lucio Vivaldi (1678-1741) - Concerti per viola d'amore - Fabio B...

truth

the truth is that spirit and matter are not just from the same source:
they are the same.
spirit is matter.
matter is spirit.

now,
laugh,
the owl hoots,
i go to sleep.

i don't know what love means

i don't know what love means.
it is a word.
misused.

i know what i want.
to be with you.
to be close with you.

i know
what i do not want to be.
i don't want to be a prison,
not for me,
not for you.

i don't want
to be a trapdoor.
I don't want you
to be a black hole.

i don't want
to wear a mask
i don't want
you wearing a mask.

i know
what i don't need.
i know what i need.
i can take both
but not one.

all
i want
is to be
with you
as much
as this is possible.
at all.

that's all.
so what.

i will
be kind.
because i am.





But no one makes us suffer

out of the chapter "The mystification of experience", The Politics of  Experience, R.D.Laing


" But no one makes us suffer. The violence we perpetrate and have done to us, the recriminations, reconciliations, the ecstasies and the agonies of a love affair, are based on the socially conditioned illusion that two actual persons are in a relationship. Under the circumstances, this is a dangerous state of hallucination and delusion, a mish-mash of phantasy, exploding and imploding, of broken hearts, reparation and revenge.

Yet within all this, I do not preclude the occasions when, most lost, lovers may discover each other, moments when recognition does occur, when hell can turn to heaven and come down to earth, when this crazy distraction can become joy and celebration.

And, at the very least, it befits Babes in the Wood to be kinder to each other, to show some sympathy and compassion, if there is any pathos and passion left to spend.

But when violence masquerades as love, once the fissure into self and ego, inner and outer, good and bad occurs, all else is an infernal dance of false dualities. It has always been recognised that if you split Being down the middle, if you insist on grabbing this without that, if you cling to the good without the bad, denying the one for the other, what happens is that the dissociated evil impluse, now evil in a double sense, returns to permeate and possess the good and turn it into itself."







Thursday, September 18, 2014

R.D.Laing

Sainkho Namtchylak - Creation Song

Russian orthodox chant Chesnokov "We Praise Thee" : good night

The Doors Light My Fire With Lyrics





what about more warmth? but i like the fire, the thunder, the lightening and the rain



Vinícius de Moraes, Toquinho e Maria Creuza - Eu sei que vou te amar (L...

i don't know.



But i being poor, have only my dreams

“But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams."


W.B.Yeats

i will let you go


inbetween
i watch clear water flow
so much peace
and autumn light,
birds sing,
i will let you be
and i will let you go

you know
but do not want to hear:
sadness is just another form of desire.
you are not present,
but you are true,
breathe and go.

walk,
i am clear.
walk,
alone.

i cannot
be drawn inside.
i need
to stay and listen
here.

there is sun,
reflections in the stream.
i cannot catch them.
they are beautifully
dancing


in silence
i will hold your hand
for a few days.
you will take your hand
and your sadness
to your own shore.

i flow,
flow, flow,
silent liquid gold

Ikkyu, never lost...

Having no destination, I am never lost.

After they die, Ikkyu

After they die
        Why are people called Buddhas
After they die?
          Because they don't grumble any more,
Because they don't make a nuisance
Of themselves any more.


ANDREY NEMZER - "Saint Francis Prayer" by Eli Tamar

Basso Profondo - Blessed is The Man Who Seeks No Counsel Among The Impious

MERCEDES SOSA: "Volver a los diecisiete"



gute nacht





Wednesday, September 17, 2014

Janis Joplin - Get it while you can

Luar na Lubre - Costa da morte (directo)

Sainkho Namtchylak - Night Birds

mathematics in the bathroom

higher algebra...ok. but doing additions: useless. i will finish my beer in the tub, have a smoke and sleep. all other stuff is imponderable and will not be changed by subtraction or addition or multiplication  or division. no, certainly not by division.
and even longing and desire can have a rest.
i do have a place to sleep.
not everybody has.

Tom Petty - Only a Broken Heart

Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers | Sins of My Youth

Antonio Vivaldi 6 Violin Concertos for Anna Maria

David Gilmour Wish you were here live unplugged



yes. sim.

Arvo Pärt- Spiegel im Spiegel

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Human beings are not born once and for all

“Human beings are not born once and for all on the day their mothers give birth to them, but … life obliges them over and over again to give birth to themselves.”
~
Gabriel Garcià Marquez

..yes, ja, i write about this, day for day...

Monday, September 15, 2014

clairvoyance is a poison

clairvoyance
an inherited gift
i didn't ask for

"gift" is the
german word
for poison

and it is not
very nice
mixing up
dream and reality,

to err around
like a shadow
between shadows

and lose yourself
until you don't know
what is true
and what is not

it is not nice
to be
one's own ghost


remark:
it is very diffiuclt
to discern
confusion
and vision



now i have a house

now i have
a house
but no heart inside

now
i have a heart
but no walls around

now
i don't know
where i am,

near a river
where i watch
autumn leaves

passing.
me.


remark:
no answer is answering.
looking for confusion
we will find it.

Chopin - Cello Sonata in G minor, Op. 65 (Maria João Pires & Pavel Gomzi...





"things" are as they are but i  know neither what they are nor what they mean to my life.

i even don't know who i am and what i "mean".

you can quote Dr.F's daily comment:

so what?





John Lennon - Gimme Some Truth (Lyrics)

i'm not even sick of this anymore. it is enough for me to be true to me and  to be myself.


remarks: concept of birth and death

i am not myself partularly concerned about birthdays.

i have a birthday each day, even when i don't notice,
but i try to experience this conscientiously.

there is no ground on which to walk for my soul,
there is no fixed path for my spirit to follow,
there is only a thin lifeline for my body to stay on this earth.
i am perishable as we all are.
i am hurt as we all are.
i was born naked, and i will die naked and i do love naked.

i have no plans. i repeat, i have no plans.

i am in confusion and clear at the same time, i feel lost, i feel and felt all this most days of my life.

i spend so much energy and myself all day, and coming home i need to go to my inner source,
using my own methods of  leaving, coming and being:
i see my dreams as dreams, my wishes as wishes, my fears as fears, my anger as anger and my irritation as irritation. i do not try to destroy these: i just let them be. and i let myself be.

when i cannot manage easily enough, i use writing.
i use it to put outward what is inside, then i let go.
a lonely communication with myself.

it is to die and to be born day for day.
it is called life.

and some days it would be so much easier to deal with this just with a smile and a hand to hold,
and some days it wouldn't be enough.
i know.

the joy of life, so precious.
laughter.
light.
sharing.
all.

you know.






nightmares

but
nightmares
return
and new ones
arise

i had to walk
through fences
of living snakes

and formless
demons
in dense shadow,

and it was
too much night
for shadow

and from darkness
into black
deep outside

and deep
inside
thick sticky black

and when i saw
a light
i approached

and the window
led into
an abyss

it was
below
and
above

there
was
no escape

am
I
a test?





Eric Clapton - Tears in Heaven live Crossroads 2013

who wants to be in heaven....i am here.
and why always tears.
but would you know my name?






Sunday, September 14, 2014

the old pain has left

the old pain
has left,

the old pain
tattooed
into my brain
has left.

there is none.

but joy and pain
go hand in hand.

i will have space
for new joy
and new pain.

i have hope for joy
and courage for pain.

there is space.
inside.

there are the sea,
the waves,
the wind.

there is wilderness,
waste land.
broom, lavender,
open soil

i need help
for my garden

where i want
to see the wild
horses run

and laugh,
yes,
i want to see
the horses laugh






this does not mirror my momentary state of mind at all, but i know

“You darkness, that I come from,
I love you more than all the fires
that fence in the world,
for the fire makes
a circle of light for everyone,
and then no one outside learns of you.
But the darkness pulls in everything:
shapes and fires, animals and myself,
how easily it gathers them! -
powers and people -
and it is possible a great energy
is moving near me.
I have faith in nights.”
― Rainer Maria Rilke

clear and confused

i
am
clear
and
confused

i am
am
am
am

was
will be
will have been
i am

so what
i am clear
no?

Leonard Cohen - I'm your man: but no, no mask

no. this is what i will not do, i will not want to wear a mask. i just want to be there.




Jim Morrison --- The white blind light





Your home is still here. inviolate, uncertain. Thank you, oh lord, for the white blind light. Jumped humped, born to suffer... Made to undress in the wilderness. All of us have found a safe niche where we can store up our riches and talk to our fellows... in the same premises of disaster. Thank you, oh lord, for the white blind light. Let me tell you about heartache in the loss of god... wandering, wandering in hopeless nights. Moonshine night, mountain village insane in the wood and the deep trees. ...and the deep trees... ...and the deep trees... Your home is still here. Violet, uncertain. Oh, I want to be there, I want us to be there, oh, I want to be there...beside the lake, beneath the moon.... Woolen, swollen... drinking its hot liquor... I want to be there. Thank you, oh lord, for the white blind light. A city rises from the sea. Let me tell you about heartache in the loss of god. Wandering, wandering in hopeless nights. Let me show you the maiden with rot iron soul. Out here in perimeter there are no stars. Out there we are stoned... Immaculate...

Tchaikovsky - "Invocation to Sleep" (a capella)

Rachmaninov Vespers - 4 Joyful Light (Kiev Chant)

Rachmaninov Vespers - 2 Praise the Lord (Greek Chant, Ps. 104)

Chesnokov Op. 40-5 "Do not cast me off" (Concerto for bass profondo and ...

what an incredible russian bass.....
don't cast me off...ja,
this sound is reverberating allover



PJ Harvey - The River



And they came to the river 
And they came from the road 
And he wanted the sun 
Just to call his own 

And they walked on the dirt 
And they walked from the road 
'til they came up close 
Throw your pain in the river 
To be washed away slow 

And we walked without words 
And we walked with our lives 
Two silent birds 
Circled by 

Like our pain in the river 
And we followed the river 
And we followed the road 
And we walked through this land 

And we called it a home 
But he wanted the sun 
And I wanted the whole 
And the white light scatters 

And the sun sets low 
Like the pain in the river

Fallende Sterne,"falling stars", R.M.Rilke

"FALLENDE STERNE"

Weißt Du noch: fallende Sterne, die
quer wie Pferde durch die Himmel sprangen
über plötzlich hingehaltne Stangen
unsrer Wünsche — hatten wir so viele? —
denn es sprangen Sterne, ungezählt;
fast ein jeder Aufblick war vermählt
mit dem raschen Wagnis ihrer Spiele,
und das Herz empfand sich als ein Ganzes
unter diesen Trümmern ihres Glanzes
und war heil, als überstünd es sie!


Falling stars

Do you remember still the falling stars
that like swift horses through the heavens raced
and suddenly leaped across the hurdles
of our wishes--do you recall? And we
did make so many! For there were countless numbers
of stars: each time we looked above we were
astounded by the swiftness of their daring play,
while in our hearts we felt safe and secure
watching these brilliant bodies disintegrate,
knowing somehow we had survived their fall.

C'est presque invisible qui luit, R.M.Rilke

C'est presque l'invisible qui luit


C'est presque l'invisible qui luit
au-dessus de la pente ailée ;
il reste un peu d'une claire nuit
à ce jour en argent mêlée.

Vois, la lumière ne pèse point
sur ces obéissants contours
et, là-bas, ces hameaux, d'être loin,
quelqu'un les console toujours.

Laurie Anderson (feat. Lou Reed) - In Our Sleep

Dhafer Youssef - La prière de l'absent

Sainkho Namtchylak - Naked Spirit.wmv

Laurie Anderson, Poison

"did I do a thing in another lifetime that was really really mean? a small bullet, a piece of glass and your heart just grows around it."



 this is far away now. another birth, another life...and courage for the journey






Sprachgitter

SPRACHGITTER 

Augenrund zwischen den Stäben. 

Flimmertier Lid 
rudert nach oben, 
gibt einen Blick frei. 

Iris, Schwimmerin, traumlos und trüb: 
der Himmel, herzgrau, muß nah sein. 

Schräg, in der eisernen Tülle, 
der blakende Span. 
Am Lichtsinn 
errätst du die Seele. 

(Wär ich wie du. Wärst du wie ich. 
Standen wir nicht 
unter einem Passat? 
Wir sind Fremde.) 

Die Fliesen. Darauf, 
dicht beieinander, die beiden 
herzgrauen Lachen: 
zwei 
Mundvoll Schweigen.

....

Laurie Anderson:
Language is a virus from outer space
http://youtu.be/Jvb0-Fm98qI

Un estruendo, Paul Celan

Ein Dröhnen
Un estruendo
Ein Dröhnen: es ist 
Un estruendo: la 
die Wahrheit selbst 
verdad en sí misma
unter die Menschen
entre los hombres,
getreten, 
hace acto de presencia
mitten ins
en pleno 
Metapherngestöber.
torbellino de metáforas.

En los rios, Paul Celan

In den Flüssen
En los ríos 
In den Flüssen nördlich der Zukunft 
En los ríos al norte del futuro 
werf ich das Netz aus, das du
echo la red que, 
zögernd beschwerst 
titubeando, lastras 
mit von Steinen geschriebenen 
con las piedras escritas
Schatten.
con sombras.

Tibetan Healing Sounds #1 -11 hours - Tibetan bowls for meditation, rela...

Gurdjieff / De Hartmann - Turning [AUDIO]

Friday, September 12, 2014

Persian Mystical Dance

Carminho - Escrevi Teu Nome no Vento ao Museu do Fado

but me

i want the wind to tell me your name

i want the wind to bring me your voice

and i want you to call my name

into my ear

now .

and now is always

now.

now cannot be lost in fado

and fado knows.





Carminho "Talvez" (Alma)

may be this sounds boring : it is not, not for me

a river flows inside,
a peaceful flow
and i am happy
when i hear
your voice

and even now
i listen
and i feel
this,

a melody
with edges,
breaking waves
and tides
and laughter

i am happy
and i let
me
be















Thursday, September 11, 2014

Cherubim Song "Sofronievska", P. Chesnokov

Keith Jarret -The Magician In You'71 (Expectations)

Paolo Fresu: Miles Davis e Chet Baker a confronto

Mozart / Serenade in D major, K. 320 "Posthorn" (Mackerras)

Laurie Anderson - Let X = X

don't we know this...i feel not 'like', i feel, this is enough







"Dance Me To The End of Love" Leonard Cohen




i do love this song...

Simon and Garfunkel - Bridge Over Troubled Water

2012 - Anouar Brahem - Dance with waves - Live at Bucharest

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

De las palomas oscuras (Casida IX, A Claudio Guillén); Federico García Lorca

De las palomas oscuras

Por las ramas del laurel
vi dos palomas oscuras.
La una era el Sol,
la otra la Luna.
"Vecinitas", les dije,
"¿donde está mi sepultura?"
"En mi cola", dijo el Sol.
"En mi garganta", dijo la Luna.
Y yo que estaba caminando
con la tierra por la cintura
vi dos águilas de nieve
y una muchacha desnuda.
La una era la otra
y la muchacha era ninguna.
"Aguilitas", les dije,
"¿donde está  mi sepultura?"
"En mi cola", dijo el Sol.
"En mi garganta", dijo la Luna.
Por las ramas del laurel
vi dos palomas desnudas.
La una era la otra
y las dos eran ninguna.