"really", for this my diary

"really"
i am not prepared
for a life
without
mysteries to find,
but for a  life
with  astonishment,
wonder,
compassion,
love,
"really",
i'd rather "really" die
without all this.
i shall,
anyway...

PS:
i forgot: and i want to play like a child, always, "really".....i do not want to be an "adult","really", being "adult" is often nothing but a monstrously blown-up rigid habit of learnt indifference and frozen masks, though it can also be a joy of transition and enlightenment, then it is being truly grown.....hard to deal with but worth every inch of the way 

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