it is still cool with a fresh wind coming
and going.
coming from giving my life to work
and daily needs, now i just am, this is
the good about leaving home and fixed
structure.
and this is how i try to end my days
since childhood.
I walk inside out, i face death,
and then i am.
and between complaining and consuming,
between giving and taking, between facing
my shortcomings and misdeeds, between
pain and easiness, between revulsion and
tenderness, between all this and everything else:
i am and i know.
i know that i do not need to escape being,
i also know i cannot,
that the only truth is in true nakedness,
from birth to death.
in the stillness of solitude all finds clear flow.
to be such and calm with other humans is another field
and sphere of experience.
all is moving, i see clothes on washing lines
fluttering in the wind, yellow flowers swaying
and bushes bending. now.
each molecule , each atom, each tiniest part
and each wave must be and move within, through and by
energies and forces of a nature which creates
movement between the poles of apparent opposites
attracting and repulsing each other and being united and one
with their magnetic field, the simplest
form to say and to say they are not really opposites
as they belong together. this is a cosmic law as we can experience it.
This is the same as being between now and tomorrow,between here and there,
and these forces give impulse, create life and death.
the most elementary force is the source of life
and can be misused to destroy our planet. it is nuclear cosmic energy living inside all matter. matter is living spirit, just a little denser ....that's why we knock our head on walls.
now i reached a café in the sun near feira
da ladra. it is saturday.the wind has gone as it had come. music, colours, noise and so many little things to see. people from around the world, many tourists.
old people sitting on benches dreaming of..i wonder, i'd like to know.
then, i was about to take a photo of some sculptures, a shop owner shouting at me from his deep and unknown frustration. i said, i respect your wish and he answered: no, you don't respect anything, you are a German.
my o my. so, now i should know what i am..
between elements, people,
there are magnetic fields vibrating with
unknown past and often densely clouded
by opinions and self defence.
they seek each other, they flee each other, all has a reason.
in love relationships child meets child, person meets person, mind meets mind,
souls wish resonance and search for
music.
all this nuclear power is of the same origin as sex, it is truly cosmic, it is erotic even with a flower opening and a bud shooting out of the earth, a spring flowing or a fire flaming, it is beautiful and we can make it terribly destructive.
we are humans. we can kill everything.
but-the same forces and fields of life will still be there when we will long be gone.
each new born comes out of this, each death happens in this.
a feeling of light and recognition of essence must find a way to see through all emanations of these cosmic forces as seeing one as well as appreciating our deep relatedness with everything alive and dead.
better to face this force with its polarity and find a little harmony in this small short life of ours.
death is not the opposite to life,
and sex is not the opposite to love.
nothing in life exists truly opposite.
just humans try..
as a simple man i still believe in
love beyond the veils and curtains of human cruelty, stupidity, blindness,
a cosmic love within the forces working
life on this earth.it is ..a hope, a faith.
not more.
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